My friend recently asked me why my posts have an underlying note of sadness in them.
Words don’t pour out untill they start choking me. And there is always emotions involved. I have been told that my face mirrors what is in my mind. My smile disappears in the fraction of a second,bringing clouds of irritation , anger, and inner turmoil.
Today I received a parting gift from a friend. It came as a big surprise.
She said that she will miss me and with hugs came unexpected tears.
I love her as my younger sister. We had absolute fun during the times we worked together. Even though circumstances put a certain strain outwardly, deep down I still feel that pull at the chords of my heart . We share the same camaraderie when we talk and work. We always rocked as a team.
I wish I could change back time and put back things where I believe it should be.
But I know that my myopic sight cannot fathom the greater vision of Almighty.
“Living with constantly being upset about what you lost is to waste what you have.”- uncredited quote.
But then again it depends on how deep and wide is your loss.
You can live with the loss just like the way you live with an incurable disease. You keep it under control just with the right amount of medication. But still it reminds you of its presence, its grip tightening sometimes .
But you aren’t wasting what you have . You know that life has to go on.
You go on, with the upset feeling.
Life is still the same. You just become a different you. As you live with an ache which plays hide and seek.